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"I don't understand how anyone can think that I'm worthy of ... Anything." - Jacqueline Kelly

"I will be fine. I'm always fine. This is my perfect little life. I smile. I laugh. Nothing ever goes wrong. Nothing..." - Jacqueline Kelly

"And you know what the hardest part is? That now, when I cry, I don't even try to stop my tears because I know they're going to fall no matter what." - Michelle Burns

"I'm so tired of this. It's too much for me to handle right now. I'm sick of getting hurt and having my heart broken. I want to just give up." - Jacqueline Kelly

"I want to change my name and go off to a place where no one will see." - Jacqueline Kelly

"I love being in his arms and listening to his heart beat. I love standing up next to him and raising my heels to kiss him even though I don't have to." - JoAnne Golden

"I guess the reason I'm giving up is because I have nothing to hold on to." - Jacqueline Kelly

"We'll always be close. It's just how we are. We've been close for so long that it would just be weird to drift apart from each other. We've always been and will always be there for each other. That's just how our relationship is." - Kelsey West

"There's so much about me that you don't know and there's so much about me that you'll never understand." - Michelle Burns

"So, here's my question. What makes me so damn wonderful? I'm nothing. Honestly. I'm just another girl, doing what she can to make believe happiness. And, it's not working. But, somehow I managed to convince everyone around me that I am. And they say they love me. But, how can they? What they see isn't me. It's what I pretend to be, because its what I'm told to be. But, I'm not happy. I'm not nice. I'm mean. I'm evil. I say things and do things that hurt myself and hurt people. Deliberately. Because, I can. And because it's supposed to make them all leave me alone so I don't have to pretend anymore, but they don't leave. No, instead they continue to believe I'm happy, perky. When I smile they believe me. When I laugh they think it's real. And they think they love me. But, they don't know me. They know who I pretend to be. But, how do you love something that's not real?" - Jacqueline Kelly

"And you know what the hardest part is? That now, when I cry, I don't even try to stop my tears because I know they're going to fall no matter what." - Michelle Burns

"I fade in and out of reality. " - Jacqueline Kelly

"I get the best feeling in the world when you say hi, or even smile because I know, even if it's just for a second, I crossed your mind." - Hollie S.

"I want to change my name and go off to a place where no one will see." - Jacqueline Kelly

"And I know I could love you so much better than this. But, you give less than I do. Why should I keep giving everything? Eventually we know it's gonna end, so for now I'm going to stop giving, and let you feel what I've felt this whole time we've been together. In the end, the person who gives the most is the one who ends up getting hurt, and I'm so sick of being the one with tears in her eyes." - Kate Tierney

"You know, I say I'm okay. My mouth moves and joyful little meaningless words fall from it. Everything's okay. But inside I'm screaming out for help. Screaming for someone to save me. My shouts are deafening, yet, no one seems to hear them." - Jacqueline Kelly

"I honestly don't understand what makes people think they love me, what makes people think I'm a good person. Because I'm not." - Jacqueline Kelly

"He really does make everything okay." - Jacqueline Kelly

"No one thinks that I cry myself to sleep every night. No one knows that I'm not that strong. But maybe it's time for someone to find out that the person they know is not the real me." - Michelle Burns

"Things aren't great. The nightmares of my past are returning to haunt me in my sleep. When I'm awake, a certain sound, a word, brings back the memories and I freeze. I can't breathe. My soul is so torn. I wonder if it will ever be healed completely. My heart is ripped into shreds. It doesn't seem as if there's anyway to mend it. I'm dying. I'm dying and no one can tell. They don't even care. It's torture, going through the motions of life as if I'm really here. I don't remember the last time I really felt anything. The last time I cried or laughed and meant it. And I wonder why no one can tell. They all say the love me but then why aren't they able." - Jacqueline Kelly