Depressed Archive

"Fed up with my destiny and this place of no return. Think I'll take another day and slowly watch it burn." - Amanda Marshall, "beautiful goodbye"

"I feel like I've tried for so long to be happy, and the more I try, the more that goal slips from my reach. It's almost like quicksand where the more you struggle, the more submerged you become. I've given up on everything. Nothing matters to me anymore. Especially myself. The part of my life that matters least to me is myself. Because I'm no one. . . and I always have been." - Talia G.

"I'm that girl that's always happy -- the one who never has problems, and when I do, they don't get to me. Everyone sees me as the one they can count on to put a smile on their face because as far as they know, I always have one on mine. No one looks any deeper than that." - Michelle

"It takes a stiff upper lip, just to hold up my face. I gotta suck it up and savor the taste of my own behavior. I am spinning with longing, faster than a roulette wheel. This is not who I meant to be. This is not how I meant to feel." - Ani DiFranco 'Wish I May'

"I'm getting pretty good at looking at the bright side while the flames ripple on the sand and swallow me whole, but this melancholy that I carry makes me feel so grown up at my kitchen table doing shots of resignation. I never thought I'd see the day when I would say, I give up and break the stallions of my wildest expectations." - Ani DiFranco 'Rock Paper Scissors'

"Back in school they never taught us what we needed to know. Like how to deal with despair or someone breaking your heart. For twelve years I've held it all together but a night like this is begging to pull me apart." - brand new

"It's too much. I'm numb and I'm tired. Too much has happened today. I feel as if I'd been out in a pounding rain for 48 hours without an umbrella or a coat. I'm soaked to the skin in emotion." - The Martian Chronicles

"sorry if my eyes don't sparkle anymore."

"I hurt so good inside I swear I could die." - LeAnn Rimes, "for the first time"

"So, here's my question. What makes me so damn wonderful? I'm nothing. Honestly. I'm just another girl, doing what she can to make believe happiness. And, it's not working. But, somehow I managed to convince everyone around me that I am. And they say they love me. But, how can they? What they see isn't me. It's what I pretend to be, because its what I'm told to be. But, I'm not happy. I'm not nice. I'm mean. I'm evil. I say things and do things that hurt myself and hurt people. Deliberately. Because, I can. And because it's supposed to make them all leave me alone so I don't have to pretend anymore, but they don't leave. No, instead they continue to believe I'm happy, perky. When I smile they believe me. When I laugh they think it's real. And they think they love me. But, they don't know me. They know who I pretend to be. But, how do you love something that's not real?" - Jacqueline Kelly