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"I don't know what I want in life. I don't know what I want right now. All I know is that I'm hurting so much inside that it's eating me, and one day, there won't be any of me left. Everything that ever caused a tear to trickle down my cheeks, I run away and hide from it. But now, everything is unwinding and finding its way back towards me. And I don't know what to do. I just know that the pain I felt so long ago, it's hurting ten times more."

"my friends are getting mad.. i haven't been going out as much.. my tan and my hunger have begun to fade.... i guess I'm thinking that if i stay in my house long enough... Over time i will begin to fade too... hopefully in time i will disappear. . . " - Beckie

"If you saw my face right now, you'd say that I was crying. I'm not, I'm not, I'm not; I'm really smiling." - Jann Arden, 'waiting for someone'

"Look into my eyes, look into my heart, look into my soul, it's all torn apart."

"Everything is finally working out for everyone, everyone is getting who they want and everything they want. I'm extremely happy for them because they all deserve it...but I can't help but to wonder why it can't happen to me." - Anna McKelvey

"I love rain because it hides my tears so well."

"Right now, I'm trying to keep myself from dying. It feels like I can't breathe." - Buffy the Vampire Slayer

"Oh, yeah, yeah. If your definition of 'ok' is having the strong desire to draw a warm bath and slit your wrists, then I am peachy." - Dawson's Creek

"I used to look at the sky and think that everything could be okay if at least one star was shining brightly. Now I look at the sky and see many stars shining brightly, but it gives me no reassurance of anything because I lost my faith in the stars."

"Maybe I'm crazy, but laughing out loud makes the pain pass by." - DMB, 'Spoon'

"I'm getting pretty good at looking at the bright side while the flames ripple on the sand and swallow me whole, but this melancholy that I carry makes me feel so grown up at my kitchen table doing shots of resignation. I never thought I'd see the day when I would say, I give up and break the stallions of my wildest expectations." - Ani DiFranco 'Rock Paper Scissors'

"I can't wake up to these reminders of who I am: A failure of everything... 18 going on extinct. I know my place it's nowhere you should roam." - Fall Out Boy, "reinventing the wheel to run myself over"

"There is a voice, that has no name. It comes with evening or behind the rain. I have no time now, to stop and explain, I just keep movin, cause it helps to ease the pain. The night has music that calls to me, across the canyons of an endless sea. I seek the shadows, of yesterday. Today can't hold me, so I must be on my way. Speak to me softly but tell me no lies. I see tomorrow shining in your eyes. I have no time now to stop and explain, I just keep movin cause it helps to ease the pain."

"I look at the world as just another place I must stay in until I can go home." -Jacqueline Kelly

"Depression is not sobbing is not sobbing and crying and giving vent, it is plain and simple reduction of feeling. Reduction, see? Of all feeling. People who keep stiff upper lips find that it's damn hard to smile." -Ordinary People

"It sucks when you've been a disease all your life, when every time you try, every time you reach for something you want it's taken away. It sucks when you can't see the truth right in front of you. I used to think I had myself all figured out, but now I feel like I have to get to know me all over again, and go through all these obstacles to learn everything I used to know... ever feel like that? Gut feelings aren't always gut feelings, and the light at the end of the tunnel may be yet another train about to run over you. Breaking promises that you've made to yourself is like suicide and I'm sick of slitting my wrists every fucking night. I am sorry that I am a lazy fuck, I am sorry I never do anything right, I am sorry I'll never live up to your high expectations. I am just trying to make it through today. leave me alone." - Juley

"I'm sick of smiling, and so is my jaw, can't you see my front is crumbling down? I'm sick of being someone I'm not." - A New Found Glory

"See I don't know if you can help me or not cause I don't feel sick, but the pains in my head have almost put me underground." - Alkaline Trio, "take lots with alcohol"

"The promise that on the other side of depression lies a beautiful life, one worth surviving suicide for, will have turned out wrong." -Prozac Nation

"I guess the reason I'm giving up is because I have nothing to hold on to." - Jacqueline Kelly