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"there is no more intense reading than the kind you have to do when you want other people not to think it is sad that you are dining alone." - It's My F---ing Birthday by Merrill Markoe

"after that i stopped seeing him. i don't know who initiated the stoppage. but once it ground to a halt, no one bothered to put the key back in the engine and turn it again. for a brief moment i thought that maybe soon wasn't up yet. but this time 'soon' meant never again." - It's My F---ing Birthday by Merrill Markoe

"what was wrong with me anyway? here I had acquired Mr. Wonderful and I was scanning the territory for land mines. my refusal to believe that I was worthy of love was causing me to cast aspersions randomly and for no reason." - It's My F---ing Birthday by Merrill Markoe

"the effect it had on my libido was so dramatic that I didn't know how to act. the dumb girl wanted to drag him onto the backseat of my car, pin him down so he couldn't escape, and start to unbutton his clothes. but my smarter self told me to get into my car alone immediately and get myself home." - It's My F---ing Birthday by Merrill Markoe

"and why did I care? I wasn't even supposed to care. I had promised myself I wouldn't care." - It's My F---ing Birthday by Merrill Markoe

"which category was I? or was I too insignificant to even have a category?" - It's My F---ing Birthday by Merrill Markoe

"'that's how real unconditional love works,' I started to lecture myself, when I would begin to worry about our relationship. 'I have lived a life of such serious deprivation that I'm like a starving person at an all-you-can-eat buffet.' I tried to ignore the nervous voice in my head that kept repeating, what did I do to make him love me so damn much this soon? and if he loves me so much, why haven't we slept together yet?" - It's My F---ing Birthday by Merrill Markoe

“i mean, even if he did call, what the fuck did he want me to say? ‘it’s okay that you jerked me around and treated me like shit. now that i have received this enormous bouquet of seasonal flowers, i am beginning to see you in a very different light. suddenly the past is growing [...]

“he was the asshole in this. he was the liar and the cheater. i was so lucky he didn’t call me.” – It’s My F—ing Birthday by Merrill Markoe

“He had already yanked some tears out of me without my permission and now here I was obsessing on the psychological origins of his behavior as a way to seem more detached than I really was. I was secretly terrified that the dumb girl inside me might want him back.” – It’s My F—ing Birthday [...]

“And he really seemed to like me an awful lot. Which frankly kind of scared me because he was coming toward me like a speeding train. he seemed to be so crazy about me so soon that it didn’t make any sense to me.” – It’s My F—ing Birthday by Merrill Markoe

“I love my friends, but it may be because they are as fucked up as I am.” – It’s My F—ing Birthday by Merrill Markoe